Have you noticed that, for some people, God’s personality is
mysteriously similar to theirs? Sometimes, if we’re dead set on getting our way, the
way we see God’s will is going to magically line up with our will. He wants
you to have that big house that overextends your budget because God wants the
best for you and, darn it, you deserve it. God does think you’re being persecuted because people disagree with you,
and it’s not at all because you have zero tact and a big mouth. You see, that kind of thing is not Christianity, that’s just us having an imaginary friend to justify our
lousy behavior.
Showing posts with label sanctification. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sanctification. Show all posts
We Christians love
to talk about good works, as if the sanctity of the entire universe were
hinging on us making sure that everyone knows they need to be good as often as
possible. We have strapped on our gun and badge and made it our sacred duty to
secure the world from… well, knowing what most of us already know.
But we’re
not the moral police, we’re the love philanthropists.
12:04:00 PM
A recent study suggested that those who were trying to reach
a healthier goal of some sort tended to indulge more. Those who fill their
carts with kale and cucumbers (and snap pictures to post on social media) will
likely also grab a few bottles of wine or a tub of ice cream as well. Why?
Because we crave balance. And the more extreme we are in one direction, we will
be so in the other. However, those who simply decided to live a healthy lifestyle
had more success. I think there’s a spiritual application there. As Christians,
we’re often told that we need to get better and do better. We’re shown
perfection as our standard, in much the same way dieters are shown airbrushed muscle-bound men, and leggy photoshopped blondes, and we struggle to reach the
unreachable.
There’s only so much struggle a mind can take before it
needs rest. A hard day’s work or a deep conversation will need to be balanced
with a nice nap or a quiet evening alone. For the moralistic Christian, those
breaks aren’t things like enjoying a
good book or prayerfully meditating, they’re deep indulgence in that which we
have very tediously been trying to avoid. Because our goal is impossible
perfection, our failures often involve bottoming out.
A Big Difference
When you’re trying to live morally, all you tend to care
about is how your actions make you feel and how they appear to others. You want
to get your God-card stamped so you can feel good about your religiosity.
Whereas if your faith is less of something akin to a quarterly earnings report
and more of a move toward changing who you are, you’ll become more and more concerned
with others and how to love them.
Because a Christian lifestyle isn’t about doing, it’s about
being.
When I see someone who used to be generally unhealthy suddenly
bragging about their newfound healthy ways, I’m a) very happy for them, but b)
also a little worried for them. While a little pride isn’t the problem, truth
doesn’t tend to have to convince everyone it’s true. It just exists truthfully.
I feel the same way about morality. If you’re always trying to convince me how
moral you are and passive-aggressively attempting to make me feel guilty for
not being in the same place, I wonder who it is you’re trying to convince. What
is it that you’re afraid of?
A Life of Quiet Love
The kindest followers of Christ, the people who have had the
most impact on me, have been the quietest about their successes and the most
humbly honest about their failures. Their left hand doesn’t know that their
right hand gave. They are far more concerned with finding an angle to love
their enemies than they are with trying to fix or shame them. They are, in short,
living love, not trying to be perfect.
Jesus, in his infinite wisdom and love, gave us that
perfection through his sacrifice on the cross so that we, in our infinite
sinful indulgence, could be redeemed and, by his Spirit, be more like him,
without fear that we won’t be enough. Because he was enough in our place.
-Chad
-Chad
12:48:00 PM
There are two types of righteousness in the Christian
faith. Martin Luther labeled these two as passive and
active. Passive is the righteousness that we receive from God. We do
nothing to receive it. Active righteousness is our good works, overflowing
from a thankful heart, a new heart created in us by God through a new will
empowered by God’s Holy Spirit.
Now, I get that good works is a frightening phrase for those of you who have been
beat up by the concept of working your way into God’s favor. But this is not
that. And when you realize that our good works don’t fit into the category of
passive righteousness—the means by which we have once-and-for-all earned God’s
acceptance—then you see you aren’t doing good works as some kind of payment to
God. You are doing them because you belong to God. That new heart and God’s
Spirit within you are working in tandem to make us more like our Father. As
Luther put it, “God doesn’t need your good works, but your neighbors does.”
That
may not be a knowledge explosion for you, it may not set you back on your
heels, but I grew up with a checklist of things I needed to be doing better in
order to appease God.
I’ll be kinder—check.
I’ll give more—check.
I’ll go to
church more often—check.
So, the idea that works aren’t currency is
mind-boggling for me. To think that what we label “good works” is just another
name for responding to the passive love from God we’ve received, letting it
pour over onto the lives of those around us, like a big, beautiful exploding volcano of joy, an ocean of mercy, a world of love, by the power of God’s Spirit within
us, takes the pressure off.
I no
longer feel as though I'd better love or
else, it’s I get to love in my
daily life by taking advantage of opportunities that God set up in advance for
me, and empowers me to do. And by get
to love, I don’t mean that I’ve neurotically convinced myself it’s a great
thing. It means that I’ve been loved so hard that I really, really want to love
others like my God loves me.
5:32:00 PM
I get tired of people telling me to be a better Christian.
I was watching an old episode of Seinfeld the other day and
the gang was talking about going to funerals. Jerry hated going because it
always made him feel like he ought to do more with his life, but then—when he
tried—he couldn’t figure out what more he could be doing. I know… It was a
Seinfeld reference, you were expecting a punch-line. But the joke part is kind of on us.
I wish every one of us could experience the thrill of
something akin to climbing Everest—or whatever exciting thing you and I believe
is going to give our life some final kind of extra meaning. Because it’s worth it to feel the exhilaration of
finishing something spectacular and then quickly realizing that it didn’t add
poop to your worth. The mountain won’t remember you. It won’t give one fudge
about the strips of skin or drops of blood you left on its face. It’ll just
keep on mountain-ing, not caring that
you climbed it. And you’ll be busy looking for the next thing.
But that’s not bad news. It’s good news.
Think about every single thing that you crave. Every well-formed body you wish to experience, all the cookies, drink or illicit substances you want to stuff into your body. That new car, the bigger house. They’re never enough. As soon as the experience of having them is done, and the initial elation is over, you’re searching for that next thing. The better thing.
Nothing completely
satisfies.
That’s the bad news.
The good news is that we can stop our frantic search for better.
What’s generally meant by being
a better Christian is meeting the
useless expectations others have duct-taped onto the Christian faith. Don’t watch those movies. Don’t read those
books. Don’t listen to that music. Don’t go there, do that or touch that. I
mean, don’t be an idiot, but don’t believe the lie that something is useless
unless some religious nut condones it who thinks he knows how to live the Christian life better than you. (Col. 2:20-23)
A big part of why we have these rules—that are more
preference than perfection—is because we want our faith to be about us.
Sometimes, when a community is raising money for something, they’ll put up a
big sign with a thermometer on it, showing how much money has been raised
towards the goal. That’s how most of us picture the Christian faith. Perfection
is just hanging out at the top, waiting for us to get there. When we feel like
we’re doing really well, we proudly show our thermometers to others with the
insinuation that they should be more like us. When we’re aware of our failure to
even come close to perfection we become discouraged and ashamed.
Perfection isn’t a scale, it’s a state of being.
You don’t get
closer to it. You either are perfect or you are not. It’s not something you
achieve every once in a while. Perfection has to be maintained non-stop. (Jas. 2:10)
So, you’ve got two choices in the religion game. You can
follow the Law (which leads to death—2 Cor 3:6) or you can accept God’s unconditional
acceptance.
What I’m saying is that you can’t do it. You can’t become a better Christian. Although, counterintuitively, in living a life
of trust, walking by faith, you will start to look more like God because of His Spirit.
3:20:00 PM
They keep telling me I’m forgiven. A choir of trumpet-wielding Angels could sing the message to me in three-part harmony and I'd tell them I'd have to think about it. But sometimes it sneaks up on me. The message finds its way through the maze of pride in my crinkly brain and sets up shop. Then I wonder why I ever questioned, what I ever thought could be better than full acceptance based on the work of another—Jesus himself.
That lasts about a day.
It's a vicious cycle.
I start wanting to do something in return. That's not a bad thing, mind you. That's where it should come from--a response of love to an act of ultimate love. We love him because he first loved us, and all that. It's the part where my perfectionism starts me rolling back down that hill, Jack and Jill style. Then I need to hear the gospel all over again.
Vicious.
I know, I’m neurotic. But that’s what makes sense to me. It
seems illogical for me to be less than perfect, even if I’m loved no matter how
badly I screw it up. Because then I feel like I’m just phoning it in. I'm taking advantage of God's grace. But then I fail and fail and fail. I feel like one of those ropes that dogs tug on, and
there’s a bulldog on both ends and neither will let go.
Really vicious.
That’s been a recurring theme in my life since I became a
Christian. God tells me to trust him, and I'm like, "No, I totally got this, man." I feel like Rocky in
that first movie—where he lost—getting
knocked down by the bigger, stronger, faster and better boxer of my own sin. Eyes swelling
shut, I keep getting up. My pride won't let me do anything less. I get a few good punches in and the bell
rings. Sweet mercy. I can call a day. I can say I’ve had enough. Where’s that towel? All I can think
about is rest (and maybe those few good punches), but when the next round starts, I find myself rising, stumbling
toward failure. Bell after damnable bell, I fight, until I'm done.
But I don’t win Apollo Creed’s grudging respect. I don’t
get the girl. I don't get an adoring crowd. I get nothing. I’m bloodied and beaten
and I’ve lost. Because I tried to do it myself.
All that said, I admire the irrational need I have to be perfect. I see it as some
misguided outcome of my sanctification. A twisted desire to move more quickly
into purification. So it’s a go… What’s that?
It’s pride? –Laughs dismissively- It’s not
pride. It’s just…
Crap.
Yeah… it's pride.
Here’s the thing: I do know we're not capable of achieving perfection.
It’s literally like thinking that if you try hard enough you can fly. And I’m
not using hyperbole. No exaggeration here. I mean that. Literally. Because, if you’re like me, you don’t always fully grasp
that this is exactly how far we are from achieving perfection.
Not possible.
But I still try to do it alone.
I want to add a but. Yeah,
I know it’s impossible, but It doesn’t hurt to try. No, it doesn’t hurt to
try. Not at all. Not if you love being mentally and physically drained, feeling
like a failure and finally running away because you can’t go on anymore.
That’s the other option. Seriously.
God didn’t come and live a sinless life and die a sinner’s
death as some sort of backup plan. Drastic measures highlight a drastic need. That
need is ours. While what God wants is perfect, it can’t be done by us. It had to be
done for us.
But I still try to do it myself.
And, so, for the billionth time I will, with a sour stomach and
aching head, go to God and ask him what he wants me to do. How I can please
him. Maybe I'll listen this time when his reply to me is the same as the one he gave to those who asked in
John 6:28-29: “Then they said to him, ‘What must we do, to be doing the works
of God?’ Jesus answered them, ‘This
is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent.’”
Apart from him. I can't do it. And that hurts.
So, while my ego is left shredded on the floor at the
knowledge that even my good works are like filthy rags (Is. 64:6), he goes on, trying to get me to see the hope in this: John 15:4: “Remain
in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must
remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”
My will. My strength. Worthless apart from him. (John 15:5)
BUT...
It’s not guilt that guides us. It isn’t shame that pushes us
toward the finish line. It is love that constrains us. (2 Cor. 5:14) Stop putting all your energy into yourself and start putting your trust in Jesus. Anything else...
Impossible.
But, with God…
10:31:00 PM
I wish you knew how hard it was for me to write about grace.
After years and years of being told how I needed to work harder to please God,
it’s like learning to write with my left hand.
Every day, I need to remind myself what it means to live in
God’s grace. I can feel the pull to moralize at every turn. I want to tell you
to stop your sinning and be better for goodness sakes! Act like an adult! Act
like a man! Don’t be a skank! Why haven’t you been to church lately? Are you
reading your bible? Early morning prayers are the best! Ten percent or you’re
robbing God!
There. I feel better. What’s worse is, I’m not kidding—I
kind of do. Because it feels good to be a moralistic blowhard. It feels good to
point out your flaws so authoritatively. Kind of makes me feel superior and it
actually makes my sins seem a little further away, a bit smaller.
Wow, that’s neurotic.
But, I get it. The guilt can be overwhelming.
But the truth is better than my sinful projecting of my
guilt onto you to make me feel better. The truth is that Christianity isn’t
Chuck E. Cheese. I don’t have to work really, really hard and earn enough
tickets to claim a tiny bit of God’s love.
He already loves us.
As a matter of fact, if you belong to Him, you are like a
tree planted next to clear, pure water. Any fruit you manage isn’t because you
tried really hard or read the bible in a year. It’s because you stayed put,
next to God. You trusted that he has given you all you need, and that he’s
already pleased with you because of his child.
Your job is to bask in his love, and let that love change
you.
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