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Scripture is about as ubiquitous on social media as first day of school pictures and political rants. Before Facebook and Instagram, our grandmothers framed cross-stitched verses, and purchased various knickknacks emblazoned with the ones that touched their gray little hearts. That's cool, I guess. But the temptation is to rip words from their context, misconstruing their intended meaning to warm our souls. 

In the late 1800s there was a movement by people like the famous Dwight L. Moody and R.A. Torrey to reject traditional church interpretation. The well-educated clergy were the guardians of truth at the time. Men like Moody believed the bible wasn’t so complicated that any Tom, Dick, or Rodrigo couldn’t find meaning there. But, not necessarily the meaning. Just meaning. 

The clergy was known for boring sermons chock full of theological particulars that the average church-goer didn’t understand. Dissatisfaction with what must have felt like a kick in the blue collar to many was one of the things that fed the religiously uneducated Moody’s movement. And it created a monster in the process. 

While having a dogmatic theology doesn’t protect Christians from huge theological issues, the practice of giving willy-nilly meaning to random verses certainly isn’t a problem-solver. The idea never occurred to me that everyone didn’t treat the bible this way. That it wasn’t a collected list of do’s, don’t’s and promises. I wasn’t unaware that I was reading letters, poems, and history. But I was taught to think of them as God’s dictation. Each verse was its own metropolis of meaning as much as each chapter or book.

For instance, I could take God’s specific promise “to all the exiles whom I have sent into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon” (Jer. 29:4b) as my own. The promise that:  “For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope” (v. 11). Instead of seeing it as a bit of history, I could carefully excise it from its context. I take a promise expressly given to Israel in their exile and pluck it like a flower to display on the table of my circumstances. I steal what is at most a glimpse into the loving nature of God, and make it about me and my failing marriage, or choice of college, or new job.

You might wonder why that’s such a bad thing. Even though that verse isn’t for me, it’s still a nice thought that represents what God probably thinks about his children, right? Sure, except maybe my life has a bit of Cancer in it, or my wife leaves me for TVs John Stamos? What do I think of this God who promises welfare and not calamity then? How do I take a promise given to an entire nation that this wasn’t the end for them and make it about me without things getting a little strange?

Last week, someone posted a verse from Galatians which—by itself, in this translation—could be construed to make a political statement that Paul wasn’t making. In fact, when placed in its context, the verse was actually saying the exact opposite of said political thingamajig. Now, imagine that’s it’s not just a life verse or a political position we get wrong. Imagine all this rolling around in the verdant pastures of scripture, plucking this verse and that, we make a daisy chain of bad connections that define our spiritual lives.

I’m not saying the highly educated are the only people that should handle the bible. I’m definitely not saying religiously uneducated people can’t read and understand scripture. (That would be ignorant of me). What I am saying is that many of us have been taught a dangerous way of viewing the bible. I still run across verses, finally in context, and wince at the fact that the real meaning hadn’t even been in the same area code as the meaning I had given it. I’m saying truth matters.

We rip scripture apart so that, to ironically appropriate Nietzsche, “the text has disappeared under the interpretation.” The books of the bible aren’t made up of a long list of adages we can pick at random. (Except maybe Proverbs. I'll give you Proverbs.) Each book is written in a specific context. 

You’ve got letters to churches covering specific topics, responding to letters we don’t have, directed to certain people in certain circumstances. You’ve also got poetry, songs, stories, and personal letters. Too often, we look at the bible as if it was a book of magic, and its words were holy incantations. Instead, God chose to use the weirdness of all these methods to deliver the message throughout the ages, and it’s our responsibility to understand the message as a whole. To work out our faith in fear and trembling rather than superficially applying the words we like to ourselves. Scripture should always end up defining us, not the other way around.



-Chad West
We adore being lied to. Well, as long as it’s the lies we want. I'll admit that we've certainly become a jaded culture. It wasn’t that long ago that we trusted every word that came out of the mouths of newscasters. We believed our government would do the best thing for its citizens. Yeah, we were aware that advertisers were trying to sell us their doodads, but we would have been shocked to imagine one of them might poison us for a few extra pennies. But, in a way, we’re over that now. Not that we’ve become wiser, just bitter. Our trust is smaller now: in specific denominations, and political parties. We’re still apt to fall for almost anything, it’s just gotta come from the right mouthpiece.
There are those who have never been hurt by religion. Yes, I know that's hard to believe for some of us, but I've found it to be true. I'm very glad for those people and that they haven't been through the pain it takes to fully comprehend what I'm talking about when I say that Christians can be manipulative and deeply hurtful, or that some of them have significantly damaged the hearts of thousands upon thousands of people. 

I've certainly had great experiences with Christians and even churches, don't get me wrong. And while it's a dangerous thing to let yourself become bitter (been there, done that, got the festering ball of hate where my heart used to be) there's nothing wrong with talking about your experiences. In fact, I'd say we are more bereft without your stories.

We lied to you. We sat in church every Sunday and we sang our songs and read from our Holy Book and forgot that you were out there, lonely and alone. We brought you booklets telling you how far away from God you were but left you hungry and homeless. We told you how hot hell was going to be for you but never told you that you didn’t have to work your way to Jesus.

We’re sorry.

We pushed you away with our self-righteousness and then blamed you for staying there. We said ‘I love you in the Lord,’ but we betrayed you by never showing you His face. We ignored your questions until you just stopped asking, and then we said you had a hard heart.

We were wrong.

We never looked in the mirror. We never thought that it could be us. Until now. Now we see. Now, we know that we are no better than you. Now we know that we can’t change you and that we do not have to. We realize that if Jesus can change us, then we don’t have to stuff our religion down your throats. We hope our apology isn’t too late. We don’t always look like the God we serve.

But don’t judge Him by us.

It’s not about you and us. It’s about you and Him. So, go to Him. Ask God if He’s there. Ask Him to show you the Truth about this Jesus. Because Jesus is the only Truth, the only good, we have. The only one that matters.


(by chad west and chuck slocum)
We all have this place inside of us that we store it all. The socially unacceptable, the irreligious ideas, the things that would lose friends and uninspire people. Questions, worries and doubts that we know we can’t share, but ache to say. That place is quickly cramped and uncomfortable, tearing at its seams.

It’s hard for me to find a church. I want to, but when I go, I just end up leaving angrier than when I came. The judgment, the silly rules, the passive-aggressive jabs. It’s weird when you’ve been on the inside. You see things more clearly. Know all the abominable tricks.

Some friends and I got together the other night to talk about that. How we could maybe get that need met with each other. The Church without the junk. Well, not that kind of junk anyway—not the plastic kind. But full to the brim with the real deal. All those socially unacceptable, irreligious ideas. That was when I realized that’s what I’d been longing for all along.

The superficial judgment I felt in church, the rules I balked at, and the jabs that made me want to jab back weren’t the main things keeping me away. They were symptoms. They were walls that kept me from my soul’s need to unburden itself.

In my relationship with God, I found freedom. I found permission to tell the truth, because a) God’s not fooled by my self-righteous act, and b) God loves me anyway. It was no wonder that I wanted that from the local gathering of fellow Christians that I attended: The freedom to share the unshareable.

It’s only unshareable because we’ve so spiritualized our churches that we can’t actually be honest with one another. We have to fake it. I don’t want that anymore. Frankly, I don’t need that anymore. It makes me soul sick. (There’s a vast difference between loving correction and nitpicking, moralistic narcissism.)

Our hearts yearn to be heard without fear of judgment. Our souls feel tight and cramped in the phony religious box in which we’ve allowed ourselves to be placed. True worship flourishes in raw truth. When we dump our doubts and fears out on the floor, a warm, wet mess for all to see, and watch them shrivel and die in the light, a song of praise finds our tongues.

Our deepest hurts lie hidden because we refuse to acknowledge that others can bear them. We refuse to acknowledge that they even exist so—like unseen plaque in our arteries—they build up like a dam, threatening death to our faith and fellowship.

To openly hurt, to stand naked for all to see, is no easy feat. It takes Gospel guts. It takes a full knowledge of God’s love for us, and that he has paid for our sins. That Jesus’ death wasn’t a band-aid, but the full cure.

To have those that accept us with no judgment as we stand before them, every blemish visible, is a gift beyond measure. In Genesis, God looked at his perfect creation and said something was missing. He said, it’s not good for man to be alone. Was that an accident? Did God forget to add a dash of self-sufficiency? Of course not. We were purposefully made to need others.

That need is where our desire to be heard comes from. It is the very reason we have that place in us that we store it all. We’re waiting for someone who will listen. We’re waiting for open ears and open hearts. It’s the only thing that will allow us to shrug off that burden.

So, watch.

Listen.


And don’t just unpack. Look for opportunities to take part in the wonderful, filthy business of helping unpack the pain of others also.




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I wonder what would have happened if, as a pastor, I had stood up in front of the church one Sunday and said, “I don’t want to be here. I’m tired of playing games. Pretending I’m all happy and that I’ve got Jesus in my back pocket. I don’t care about a single person here this morning. Not today. Not most days. I’d rather be in bed because I’m tired, my mind is completely drained of any helpful thoughts, and most of this sermon is cobbled together from five other crappy sermons I was too ashamed to preach in the past. Not today. …How about you?”

What if we could openly tell people our marriages are falling apart and that we’re selfish and hate admitting we’re wrong, and not worry about how they’d react? 

What would it be like if we could, without a second thought, slump down into the back pew and start weeping into our hands knowing we’d only attract fellow weepers comforting us? If we humbly laughed at our nice Sunday clothes because they were so far removed from how we really felt inside? Would the whole place erupt in a chain reaction of laughter and tears as we realized how superficial and silly we are being?

Would we finally get honest?

I want to go to a church where a doctor and a prostitute can bump into each other at the entrance like a bad dirty joke, and walk in holding hands, laughing, and nobody thinks a thing. Because they both know they're sinners. And they both know they're loved. You may believe that’s nuts. You may shake your head and remember all the Pharisees you know, and the shame in your own heart, and know it will never happen.

But it could.

It really could.

It starts with you. It starts with me. Just believing the Gospel.

We have to focus our stare on the Good News and not look away for judgmental stares or arrogant whispers or talk of our hanging out with the wrong crowd.

It’s not going to be easy. Count the costs.

             Then laugh at the costs.

A big,

breathless

belly laugh.

               Because… well, Jesus.

I struggle almost every day. Sometimes, nonstop. I doubt, I’m angry and bitter and arrogant and I struggle with my self-worth. I don’t like people very much, I lust, I have poor social skills and I’m a crappy friend sometimes.

That’s really difficult to say.

In fact, I’m just pretending, at this point, that I’m not actually going to publish this. But I’d rather chance that you see that Jesus is for the screwed up than think church is some kind of elite club for the arrogant few. And because I’m a liar to say anything different. I’m dishonest to cherry pick. I misrepresent the God of my faith to say anything less.

And, even though I don’t like people…

because of Jesus, I love you.

(Jesus is always messing up my self-righteousness)

This isn’t therapy, it’s truth. It’s professing our need for Jesus. It’s comfort for a fellow Christian and our witness to the non-Christian. “Christ died for sinners, of whom I am the worst!” I promise you, there’s someone you know, someone in your church, that’s struggling so hard right now and they think they’re alone.

And because we think it’s about us and our goodness, they’ll continue to suffer alone.

I’m not trying to make you feel guilty. Guilt doesn’t work. I’m saying, the gospel is that we aren’t alone. The gospel is that we are loved. The gospel is that our deep, abiding existential angst can be brought to the table too, because it’s not so big that God can’t handle it. It’s not too much that the blood of God’s own Son doesn’t cover it.

My point is: if there are people that are suffering alone—and there are gobs—we haven’t been honest about the Gospel. We haven’t said it right. Or maybe we’ve been saying it in a way that they haven’t understood. (Or maybe we haven’t understood.)

The thing is, we are frightened of the Good News because it frees us and—as good as that sounds—we don’t want to be completely free. We want people to tell us what to do sometimes.

We take comfort in the idea that it’s about how we look and act. Because then we can pretend to be better than we are. We don’t have to talk about our doubts. We don’t have to talk about our deep hurts. Sunday morning we can get our ego stroked. The rest of the time, we can just sit back and be moral examples to the world. But that’s just a game. That’s not real. People see right through our act, and those that don’t just walk away because they think they’re not enough. When that’s the whole point!

None of us are enough! But we’re all loved.



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I got fed up. I was in the ministry for about five years before I was done. That final year, which I lovingly refer to as the Year of Hell, shredded me down to my component parts.

Burned out isn’t the word for what I was.

I didn’t lose my relationship with God, (Just because some of God’s people can be jerks doesn’t mean He is) but anything that smacked of commercial Christianity made me throw up a little in my mouth. Over the years, I would try a little Christian radio or read a few pages of a Christian book, but I would always end up curling my lip at the sick feeling I got, then flipping off the station (sometimes literally) or closing the book in disgust.

LET ME EXPLAIN:

Now, I know that some of you have never had a beef with the Church, and you may be having a hard time understanding what I’m talking about. I’ll try to explain it this way:

I love pudding,
but not the skin.

And I feel like a lot of what Christians say and write and sing has a skin on it. There’s a plastic veneer that we call authenticity. It’s what we’ve decided holiness looks, smells, and acts like because we can’t quite grasp the real thing. At least that’s what it’s like when I do it.

THE GOOD PART…

I got where I couldn’t emotionally or mentally stand to be around it. But before this turns into the sad tale of a soul-hurt ginger, let me tell you something good that came out of all that.

I lost all my heroes.

Having grown up in the church, surrounded by pastors and Christians and having certain speakers and teachers and musicians shoved in my face as standards of truth, justice, and the American Way, I came back into the mainstream not knowing many of the faces or names (or, thankfully, the christianese… Apparently, we’re big on making much of Jesus these days.) that seem so popular among some.

They had their big platforms and their nice haircuts and thousands of Twitter followers, but they might as well have been my second grade bus driver for all I knew of them. It was disconcerting at first—I went back into this world with some of my old habits—as I was looking for voices to follow.

But then I realized something nice: 
Everyone was on equal ground.

                   Nobody was my mini-Jesus.

Nobody held sway over me, preaching down from their studio located in beautiful downtown Mount Sinai. I had no preconceived ideas about them. All I had were their words, and what they did. Both of which are easy to see on the web these days.

SO WHAT?

Some of them are easy to dismiss. If you’re overly political or every other word is about this sinner’s agenda, or that sinner corrupting our nation, I don’t need you in my ear holes. But others are harder to discern (You like how I used that oh-so-holy word?). But that’s always been the case. Finding good teachers is like dating in a way. There are some obvious nut-jobs that you will most certainly do well to stay away from, but then there are the seemingly normal ones that only explode into insanity weeks or months after you’ve been seeing one another.

So, there are a few people I’m watching right now.

I’m seeing who I can trust in this strange new (again) landscape. I just may not be watching them for what you think. Some of you are doing that thing where you nod slowly with your eyes closed because you think I’m talking about how important it is to watch our words and actions because of our (aaand here comes another super-spiritual word) witness. But that’s not what I’m talking about at all. I don’t care if he (or she) has a beer with his Shake Shack burger, or smokes a pipe because of their LOTR obsession.

I don’t care about their sin, I care about their repentance.

We’re always tripping over our own feet in one way or another. We all have our sins—some are just more obvious than others. I’d much rather have honest sinners than mask-wearing, self-righteous know-it-all's any day of the week.

I want brothers and sisters that are aware that they aren’t better than anyone else, nor are they anyone’s master.

I want people who’d rather give their time and love to people who can’t further their career rather than pander to those who can.

But I sure as heck don’t want any more heroes.

Heroes are for comic books. Christian teachers I will sit at the feet of will just as quickly wash mine. They will openly struggle. They will honestly doubt…

…Well, sometimes.

Because they’ll also be human. And they won’t hide that junk (They’ll try not to, anyway), because seeing their mistakes is important. In short, they will be what all Christians should be—so shocked by grace that we can do nothing but utter our thankfulness in front of the rest of the world—telling them all about our true Hero.